summer is such a tumultuous time for me. ever since my parents have been divorced, i feel like i don’t have a home. when i finally make a place a home, they move. or you know, decide to run off and get married. but whatever. no place can be a home and that’s hard. idk how to handle with this. i give other people advice but i can’t give myself advice. :( i don’t even know any more. it takes me such a long time to settle down since school’s ended (even tho i still have a summer class going on) and like i’m practicing self care, but it’s not the same. i’m not being social i’m just sitting inside (or running or meditating) but that’s about it. idk maybe once i can get outside it’ll be better. but i don’t even know ha.
That’s ok to have only a couple close friends. :)
You might just be an empath! Empaths take on the emotions of other people. Right now, it sounds like you are definitely a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP). Here’s a site that might give you a few tips on to help you cope in the world: HERE.
First of all, I would suggest you start meditating just to help you feel more positively throughout the day, it’ll also help you relax and give you a greater sense of who you are over time. Right now, I wouldn’t worry about a career. Most people don’t know what they want to do; that’s ok. You need something that you’re attached to to help you grow. I would start this journey as a self-discovering journey. Celebrate that you have been given this chance to figure out who you are. Journal, meditate, do what you need to do to express yourself. Paint. You need time alone to recharge usually, but remember you also must keep a balanced and healthy social life as well. It’s all right to be shy; just hang out with your good friends some.
The meditation will help clarity where there is an overwhelming feeling of what you feel. Finding a way to express yourself would help you sort through those emotions to (painting, drawing, writing, walking, what have you). I would just caution against spending too much time in your mind; write it out or have something visual for yourself. Try to find balance. :)
And take this time to research stuff about HSPs and empaths. Talk to people on here who have similar viewpoints or gifts. I know I am more than happy to help you whatever your questions may be! Talking to other people can also help sort all of this out, help you find yourself, and figure up some direction on a career. Ask yourself: what do I like to do in my free time? Am I passionate about anything? If I’m not passionate about something, how can I find out what I’m passionate about? What makes me feel alive? Get to know yourself. Play 20 questions with yourself and write down the answers. :) Just know that you will find your path, or the path will find you. Meditate on it and rest well. Remember to always take everything one day at a time. And remember the Now. Live in the Now and the future won’t seem as intimidating all the time. <3
Peace, love, & blessings!